existent1al

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2007-10-13T16:28:05Z

I haven't updated in forever... but I guess nearly everyone on my friends list have just gotten tired of the whole "LJ" thing.

School's going well, I have an apartment lease signed for next year, and Randall Munroe, the XKCD guy, gave a presentation at my school yesterday... it was hilarious and well worth the ~1 hr 30min.

How's everyone else doing?

Terrified of what's inside you to save his life he crawls like a worm from a bird

2007-05-23T04:56:16Z

So I managed to survive another year.

It feels weird knowing you only have a year left to be a teenager.

Summer.

2007-05-20T03:59:25Z

Wow, it's finally summer. And it feels weird. It just started for me, really. I had a busy week after school.

Thursday, the day I got back, some friends of mine from out of town came up here and we all stayed at/around the Hyatt in Rosemont... until Monday[Tuesday for me]. After picking people up, stuff happening, dropping people off at Midway, I ended up driving all the way into Michigan [the one where you drive all the way through Indiana]. The fun part was that we followed that terrible storm all the way there. Pouring rain almost the entire time, lightning, and not being able to see more than 50 feet in front of you while going 70 on the highway...fun times. But really, there's a highway sign in Michigan that is like... 'Climax, 1 1/2 mi.'. Crazy shit. The drive home right after wasn't bad because I crashed in South Bend, Indiana at my friend Anf's apartment. The drive home the next morning sucked because I was ass deep in rush hour... took me an hour to cover the last 10-15 miles of the trip. Fuck Chicago traffic.

But yeah, summer feels weird.

I need to get a job.

I've been down that road and now I'm back sitting on square one

2007-04-16T07:09:15Z

So what's everyone been up to / how have things been?

You see me stepping on these leprechauns? It gotta be acid cuz the X is gone

2007-03-18T09:06:25Z

People are fucking morons. I was driving down Oakton, the street I live on, to get to Dee to go to Steak and Shake with some friends after a poker game. I was stopped at a light at the intersection of Oakton and Northwest Highway. The light turned green and someone went, and I think someone stopped to turn left, so the person in front of me stopped, so I stopped, but guess what? The person behind me was a fucking dumbass and didn't and rear ended me. I froze and wondered what the fuck to do. He pulled to the right and I thought he was going to pull to the side but instead the driver takes off. Yes, I got fucking hit and run. Luckily, I was able to memorize their license plate, so I guess the person is going to get fucked over since I made a police report.

I think my car might be too damaged to bother repairing. I think it is worth somewhere in the range of 2-2.5k, and my bumper is completely messed up. I dont know how to describe it but it got forced forward and it's kind of bent on the sides and it's hanging low. :\ I am really pissed. What a shitty thing to happen on Spring Break....

existent1al @ 2006-12-18T02:06:00

2006-12-18T08:23:30Z

I owe a livejournal post, don't I?

First of all, I will say that I (finally) changed my icon. Donnie Darko is amazing, but I think I have had that icon since I made this journal. Plus, the lateralus eye + some trippy animation is way cooler right now.

My first semester of college is over! I will hopefully only have 5 more. I really want to graduate early. I actually think I would be able to do it EVEN earlier, but I think I will try taking some grad school classes instead if I run out of interesting stuffs to take :) My grades are pretty good, from the ones I've seen so far, but I think there is a B or two in there, but eh, c'est lave. I used to know how to spell that, I promise.

Saturday [on no sleep, mind you.] was buffalo wild wings + bowling + steak and shake with Andrew, Rob, Woj, Perez, Jason and Vince. Today I made a woodfield run with Jason because I wanted to pick up some small gift-type stuffs for family. I wondered if one could get drunk off of those rum chocolates, but I think eating a whole box of them would lead to puking from all that fucking chocolate.

Here is my schedule for next semester:
http://schedule.illinexus.org/plan?&n1=326&d1=PHYS&n2=401&d2=PHYS&n3=415&d3=MATH&n4=347&d4=MATH&n5=435&d5=PHYS&n6=101&d6=GEOG&shown=,38582,38584,38571,38572,37972,37893,38588,38589,33261,33260&timetable=sp07

Seriously, who made that script? I doubt it is an official UofI thing, but who knows. Either way, it is amazing.

Anyway, break down of the classes.
Physics 326: Intermediate Mechanics and Relativity II
DIE. I have the same teacher I did for Phys325, and probably the same grading/discussion staff. This was the worst group of staff me and Erik, who is a year ahead of me, have ever experienced, and hopefully will ever have to. Boo, all the people I worked on the 325 hmwk with [Erik + other people] are either studying abroad in Hong Kong[erik] next semester or are not taking it[because they are electrical engineer majors]. Damn.

Physics 401: Classical Physics Lab
Required for major. FOUR HOUR LAB AHHH.

Physics 435: Electromagnetic Fields I
Required for major. All the homework is from the textbook. I have a solution manual on my computer for it:).

Math 415: Linear Algebra
Required for major. I had to move the class an hour back on T/R because the teacher I was going to have has the WORST ratemyprofessors reviews ever. Seriously, check these out:
"One of the worst teachers I have ever had. Never gave us a syllabus, no website, no schedule. NOTHING!. Lectures on one thing, the book says another, and the tests are on neither of the two. Avoid if at all posible"
"I can't imagine a worse professor than this man. His tests were written on scratch paper, prepard no more than an hour before class and had nothing to do with anything he talked about previously. The day he was supposed to bring the graded exams to class he "forgot" them, and decided to go back to his apt to get them. he didn't show up for an hour."
Why is this man teaching!?

Math 347: Honors Fundamental Mathematics
Required for math majors, which I want to try to do as well. I think it is some proofs based class.

Geography 101: Geog of Developing Countries
I wanted to take World Religions or Zen for my non western cultures gen ed class, but alas. The former is full, the latter was full when I tried so sign up for it. Now there are two spots for it, but the registration for the class is closed. I emailed the professor but the bastard wont email me back. I hear this class is a blowoff, so =\. Oh well, should prove to be... semi-interesting. Certainly not as much as world religions, though.

Full schedule but eh, not too worried.

Taste of Chaos is going to UofI!!! The Used, 30 Seconds to Mars, Senses Failed. I can't wait.
Also, Buckcherry is always near by whenever I am not. They are 30 minutes away at Libertyville a week after I go back to school. Fuck that. The ONE time I go to see them THE MAIN SINGER GETS LARYNGITIS! The gods are working against me to not let me see them. I want Tool to tour in America again :( Why are they going to AUSTALIA the beginning of next year? Gah.

I was tired before I decided to check facebook / email / blog, and now I am not. :((((.

existent1al @ 2006-12-16T02:42:00

2006-12-16T08:42:27Z

yea well, I suppose staying awake until 6am last night didn't help at all. Nor did the adderall, but the positives from it far outweighed the minor inconvenience of not being able to sleep, since i doubt i will be getting tired until the car ride home tomorrow. final 8-11. lunch with erik. drivehome with dad at 1. probably will be home around 4-5. i am not using sentences. well, except that one. seriously, though, i studied for like...8-10 hours straight today, minus food/bathroom breaks and small distractions, which wouldve been a LOT more frequent otherwise.

oh, and i think somewhere along typing this i decided that i am too good for capitalization. sorry if it makes me seem retarded.

i dont know why but i just suck at studying. how can you people just.... do it? i just dont understand how someone can sit down for hours and just... read... redo what they have already done.... etc. i am not trying to be insulting, because in some ways im a little jealous, because i just dont have any motivation to do things outside of class. like, ill read a textbook if i feel like it and i have sparetime around the time when im supposed to [unless i absolutely hate the class: see most histories]... but when i go back to study it's like... jesus christ, ive seen this shit before. ive DONE this. am i just some drone mindlessly doing things? not saying that studying is mindless, but it's almost how it feels like to me. the only reason why i used a little 'motivator' today wasn't really out of desperation like OMG I NEED TO STUDY SO ILL DO WELL OMG, well, i want to do well, but i wasn't desperate, but i digress. i wanted to out of curiosity [i'll try anythig once, or twice, maybe even thrice.] and because i just seriously wanted to be able to sit down and read a book. i basically skimmed through all of the textbook material we covered this year in our book and mostly in another book that is a reference [but i have it downloaded on my computer in PDF. torrents are awesome.] and some of the terrible lecture notes. after this i think im going to read through solutions to the 12 homework sets we had this year. i also just cant do things i really dont enjoy :\ this class sucked. the teacher sucks, the discussion leader didn't speak english and sucked, the grading staff didn't speak english and sucked at grading, can i complain even more? and i know i have the same teacher next semester for physics 326, and probably the same discussionleader/graders, so yea :| oh well.

anyway, sorry for that. i wanted to take a break from studying and when im not doing something i feel kind of anxious. so yea. this post was the result of that.

existent1al @ 2006-12-14T20:50:00

2006-12-15T02:52:09Z

http://img304.imageshack.us/img304/6896/linkpunchip2.jpg
ahahahahaaha. excuse me, AHAHAHA. this is awesome.

http://www.pbfcomics.com/?cid=0PBF45025BC-Dinosaur_Meteors.jpg#46
and this makes me happy =o)

http://www.pbfcomics.com/?cid=0PBF43027BC-Angels_Caught.jpg#44
and this is awesome. this guy has a strange, twisted mind.

http://www.pbfcomics.com/?cid=0PBF38032BC-Suicide_Train.jpg#39
and poor guy =o(

real update when i get home sometime.. getting home sat after my 8-11am final :\
ill try to update sat or sun

existent1al @ 2006-11-05T21:15:00

2006-11-06T03:15:14Z

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop."
The Midland
The Northeast
Philadelphia
The South
The West
Boston
North Central
What American accent do you have? Take More Quizzes

Accurate, ja?

existent1al @ 2006-10-26T00:55:00

2006-10-26T06:00:35Z

Haven't felt like updating this for awhile; I still read peoples' LJs but I just can't find anything to blog about myself, really. College is still going really well though. I went home last weekend... hung out with Jason and even went bowling friday night with some people. I still suck at bowling. At least I don't consitently gutter at least one of my throws anymore.

I had an appointment with my advisor today.. and I might get a job as a research assistant this summer working under him :) He's using compton scattering [basically firing photons are stuff and using detectors to find the scattering pattern] to measure the polarizability of neutrons. I think he mentioned that I would be part of the data analysis team so I'd have to code some stuff to analyze data. It sounds interesting and if I get the job [he said to talk to him in the Spring], I get a stipend too :) Hope that works out.

I've been watching lost with my roommate and some other friends; I'm officially hooked on the show. I've watched random episodes from season 2 and all the news one... I need to get my hands on the season 1 set so I can watch them ):. Anyway, I should be heading to bed soon. Early classes are teh suck.

existent1al @ 2006-09-21T18:12:00

2006-09-21T23:12:23Z

Man, it's a kinda crappy feeling when you only get one question wrong on a midterm.

Especially when it's the last question; >:(. In retrospect, it was me confusing the relationship of what determines the height of a central maxima as opposed to the width of the central maxima. Bahh

oh well, regardless, I'm happy with the result, + 14.7 % [out of 15]

existent1al @ 2006-09-01T12:11:00

2006-09-01T17:11:54Z

College has been awesome so far.. let me see if I can list some memories [holy shit, it's only been 2 weeks?]

-Move-in day. My dorm is by far one of the worst on the campus, but eh, whatever.
-Roommate is cool. Him and I get along really well.
-Anton's 7 lbs roast he brought down from Park Ridge that we BBQed in a park
-Random frat parties that seem to always be going on
-Anton's fucking amazing hookah table
-Pina Colada night in Mike+Anton's dorm
-Other stuff I can't remember right now.
-Played in the most aggressive poker game I have ever seen yesterday. $20 buyin cash game, .25/.50 blinds. It was pretty fun, I only lost my initial buy in which lasted me 6 hours. Honestly, every single raise was like '$3! $5! $18!'. It took awhile to get used to, and I had to play a tighter game than usual, but I was doing pretty well until my JJs got destroyed by AAs. [Pocket Js never win, according to my usual poker group =o( ].

Classes have been alright.
Phys325: so far it hasn't been too hard, it just is incredibly boring at 8:30AM and the teacher seems to be highly disorganized. She kind of reminds me of Andrews, I think. My discussion leader's name is Suk Bum Chung. Literally. I understand every hundreth word he says. It sucks.
Math385: Oh god this class is terrible. I like the teacher and the people seem alright, but oy. Taking a class you have already taken before it just terrible. I've already skipped it twice. My goal is to go only ~70% of the time, if that, and still get an A+.
CS125: An easy class for me where all the lecture notes are on the website. The teacher is really, really awesome. In the middle of one of our lectures, an instant message popped up saying something to the effect of "Thanks for the help and thanks for the wonderful date last night ;)". He said he had never been so embarrassed in his life. It's a big lecture, 300ish people, but the lecture hall is AWESOME. We have office swivel chairs :)
Phys214: I'm not used to learning Physics in a lecture hall with like, 300 people in it. The teacher seems alright, and my discussion leader is awesome.
Phys199HT: Ugh, this is actually pretty hard. No final and only one homework set a week [usually one prob with multi parts].

Anyway. I'm taking a bus home today for the weekend. My mom wanted me to come home for the weekend and she offered to pay for the bus, and I need to pick up some things from home, so I figured why not. Anyone still stuck in Park Ridge want to do anything? I think I have plans for all of saturday night and dinner time Sunday night but I should be free the rest of the time.

existent1al @ 2006-08-18T23:10:00

2006-08-19T04:09:16Z

Finished packing -> moving tomorrow. I hope everything goes okay and it doesn't rain. I'm feeling mehish right now :\ Guess I'm going to miss my family more than I thought, but I'm still pretty excited to be going off to college.

existent1al @ 2006-08-05T11:09:00

2006-08-05T16:09:06Z

You know you're going to have a bad night when you're driving on a US highway thing [US-45 in my case], and you have to take a bad piss. And your destination is off of 191st street. And you just passed 45th street. Fucking Josh Todd getting laryngitis. Oh well, shit happens.. only wasted 2 hrs driving =\

bitches love me cause they know that I can rock

2006-07-29T11:56:55Z

I found my roommate info out a few days ago, some guy who lives in NJ who used to live in Michigan who is moving back to Michigan, or something. He seems pretty cool, I think I'll get along with him really well and have a lot of fun.

3 weeks left. I wish it were tomorrow =\ I can't wait.

existent1al @ 2006-07-26T03:56:00

2006-07-26T08:56:02Z

I'd post about what I've been up to, but I can't work up the will to + this debate's been on my mind.

Krakken. How do you pronounce it? crackin', or cray-ken. We had a huge battle at the poker tables over it [I walked away with +20 all together today : )]

p.s. pat: cthulhu destroys the krakken.

existent1al @ 2006-07-19T01:03:00

2006-07-19T06:03:50Z

http://www.worldjumpday.org/
REMEMBER TO JUMP.

existent1al @ 2006-07-16T15:52:00

2006-07-16T20:52:11Z

Friday:
M.S.I. concert! Got to Pat's house at around 5, chilled with him for awhile, then got picked up by Liz, who then picked up Lauren, and we drove over to Chicago for the show. How did we find the place it was showing at? Well, I suggested finding the first person with pink hair we see and follow them. It more or less did work, even though by the time we found smoeone with pink hair, we knew where we were going.
I can't even remember what the first opener band was called, but they had one guitar and three vocalists.. and they were kind of terrible. One of the singers actually screamed pretty well, though. Then, there was Tub Ring, who was pretty awesome and got the crowd going. By this time, Pat and I were a few feet away from the front. Then, Kill Hannah came on with laser pointers built into their guitars, which was pretty cool. They put on a good show, but they were no where near as good as Mindless. As soon as Jimmy Urine went on stage, everyone went fucking crazy. The show was just amazing; they were awesome, insane, and hilarious. Definitely was a good show and was worth the $30.

Yesterday:
Poker from 1-10. Gr. So pissed about it. I played Rob heads up for about 1 1/2 - 2 hours and my pocket aces ended up getting busted by a flush he hit. Oh well.

I got woken up today by my mom asking for my S.S. # saying she's going to get me one of those heavilty limited credit cards or something o_O That was random.

Overwhelmed as one would be placed in my position

2006-07-11T10:06:37Z

Today was good :). 11 hours of poker, took away most of the pot, made about 40 bucks. Not as much as me_is_i, profit-wise, but it's still cool leaving as chiplead.

For antisocialone43: http://youtube.com/watch?v=W7O-Nd0tZg8: the video I told you about [Maynard taking a fan down]

existent1al @ 2006-07-08T16:50:00

2006-07-08T21:50:38Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	✓ I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
× I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	✓ I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business.	✓ I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
✓ I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
✓ I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. (Well, some of them, but my few close real-life friends I wouldn't replace for anything.)	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Current Plans:
July 14th: Mindless Self Indulgence, with antisocialone43 and others
Augusth 4th: Buckcherry, with ozz, who is good friends with the band, so I may get in for free/see the sound check.
Some weekend: Drive up to Indiana and hang out with johnald+west_end_guy.
August 12th: Retarded traffic school for the tickets I got at Acen. Gr.
Augusth 19th: Move-in Day
August 23rd: First day of class.

Need more real plans, but I'm going over to China town tonight.

existent1al @ 2006-07-05T19:39:00

2006-07-06T00:51:48Z

Registration was terrible. I didn't really learn anything new other than being a freshman fucking sucks because almost everyone else has gotten to register before you. \Every\, and I mean EVERY sectino of EVERY Philosophy class I could have taken was filled... along with psychology.. and one of the math classes I wanted to take. So, I had to make compromises, and I've come out with a schedule I'm semi-happy with, which beats absolutely hating my schedule, I guess.

MONDAY:
PHYS 325-A-8:30 am-9:50 am
MATH 385-D1-11:00 am-11:50 am
CS 125-AL1-2:00 pm-2:50 pm
PHYS 199-HT-3:00 pm-4:50 pm
PHYS 325-D3-8:00 pm-8:50 pm

TUESDAY:
PHYS 214/215-A2-10:00 am-11:15 am
CS 125-AYD-3:00 pm-4:50 pm
PHYS 214-D2Y-7:00 pm-8:50 pm

WEDNESDAY:
PHYS 325-A-8:30 am-9:50 am
MATH 385-D1-11:00 am-11:50 am
CS 125-AL1-2:00 pm-2:50 pm
PHYS 110-A-3:30 pm-4:50 pm

THURSDAY:
PHYS 214/215-A2-10:00 am-11:15 am
PHYS 214-L4Y-7:00 pm-8:50 pm

FRIDAY:
MATH 385-D1-11:00 am-11:50 am
CS 125-AL1-2:00 pm-2:50 pm

PHYS 214/215: Thermal/Quantum Physics; 4 hours; quarter each. Basically, the next class in line after mechanics + E&M.
PHYS 325: Intermediate Mechanics and Relativity I: I was advised not to take this class by my advisor, whose husband has taught this class. Apparently, if I take this my fall semester, I'll probably get overloaded and fail. I don't listen well, so I'm taking it anyway.
MATH 385: Intro Differential Equations: FUCKING TRANSFER CREDIT FROM SCHOOL IS A 200 LEVEL CLASS. WHICH ISN'T COMPATIBLE WITH MY MAJOR. Anyway. This will be an easy A; I was going to take the 400 level class, but I seriously doubt I'll major in math now, so why bother? I like math, I just don't think I want to take extra classes for something just because I'm good at it / it's there. I'd rather use the extra hours to explore random shit.
CS 125: Intro to Computer Science: Basically, a java course. Easy A. I was going to take the proficiency exam to get out of it, but alas, nothing in my schedule would fit, and I was struggling to fit in 15 credit hours... so this was added.
PHYS 199HT: Honors thermal/quantum physics lecture. 1 credit hour extra.
PHYS 110:Physics Careers: Required for my major. No Credit. :(. This class made it impossible to schedule a lot of things due to its bizarre hours.

Anyway, yay, I don't think I have to take a lot of gen ed classes. I'll be done next semester or the one after that, I believe.. yay for AP credit! [got 5s on Phys&Chem and 4s on Eng&Gov. How very me. Ace the sciences but not the social sciences. >:(]

I need to lay down... I'm exhausted.

existent1al @ 2006-07-03T01:20:00

2006-07-03T06:26:54Z

I gave in and made a facebook. Any of you have one too?

I really don't feel like typing up what I've been doing the past few days, but summer hasn't been too bad so far.

I have a few nights to fix my sleeping schedule in time for class registration... I've been falling asleep 3-6 the past few days, and I have to wake up at 6 on the 5th =\. I have a general idea of what I'm going to register for and my advisor is going to give me bullshit about it, probably. My mom told me to get my AP scores ahead of time so I can register for classes without having to worry about them.. and I'm going to get credit for all of them, so yay for that :). Going to start college with ~40something credits, maybe I'll graduate a semester early, not a year though. I'm debating a second major right now.. Math? Philosophy? I'll have to see how those classes go. I'm leaning towards Philosophy, though. And this post is turning into a ramble with no structure, so I'll end it.

existent1al @ 2006-06-08T22:12:00

2006-06-09T03:12:54Z

I found out that some kid in my homeroom [Joe Krecker(sp?)] died on tuesday of a heroine overdose. I knew that kid was a druggie but... heroine? Jesus.

existent1al @ 2006-06-03T23:58:00

2006-06-04T05:02:51Z

I got my new laptop yesterday. It's amazing :). <3 macs. I don't regret choosing to switch over to Mac at all. It'll take awhile to get completely used to it, but I think it's worth it.

I'm using Adium for my IM program.. and it's weird, but awesome. It quacks everytime I send/receive a message, and sighs and someone signs off and stuff. My stepdad's reaction to that sound: '...it sounds like someone's having a really weird orgasm.' I love my family.

Anyway, to the point of this post.

Can everyone leave the following information? I'm going to make it so only I can read the comment.

Name:
Phone Number:
E-mail:
Address[if you want]:

I need to start creating my address book. Thank you in advance!

On a worse note, though: My cap and gown came without the tassel. I hope they have extras. Damn school and their mess-ups =\.

Turn on. Tune in. Drop Out.

2006-05-31T02:37:43Z

Think for yourself.
Question authority.

Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening,
terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in
this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities, the political, the
religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by
giving us order, rules, regulations, informing, forming in our minds their
view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and
learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable, open-mindedness;
chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself.

Think for yourself.
Question authority.

Women who seek to be equal with men lack ambition.

I've left specific instructions that I do not want to be brought back during a Republican administration

Civilization is unbearable, but it is less unbearable at the top.

Learning how to operate a soul figures to take time.

They've outlawed the number one vegetable on the planet.

LSD is an extremely powerful, mind opening agent. We are now in the psycho, chemical age. In the future it's not going to be what book you read, but what chemical do you use to open your mind to accelerate learning.

It is my ambition to really liberate the world. Why not? Why settle for anything less? And I have a sense of humor about it. I know the odds are against me. But we only have a few years here. Let's try to leave this, uh, spaceship a better place.

We are dealing with the best-educated generation in history. But they've got a brain dressed up with nowhere to go. Science is all metaphor. In the information age, you don't teach philosophy as they did after feudalism. You perform it. If Aristotle were alive today he'd have a talk show. If you don't like what you are doing, you can always pick up your needle and move to another groove. If you take the game of life seriously, if you take your nervous system seriously, if you take your sense organs seriously, if you take the energy process seriously, you must turn on, tune in, and drop out.

At one point consciousness-altering devices like the microscope and telescope were criminalized for exactly the same reasons that psychedelic plants were banned in later years. They allow us to peer into bits and zones of Chaos.

I am 100 percent in favor of the intelligent use of drugs, and 1,000 percent against the thoughtless use of them, whether caffeine or LSD. And drugs are not central to my life.

Last words: "Why not, why not, why not." "Why not?" and "Yeah."

R.I.P.
Timothy Francis Leary, Ph.D.
October 22, 1920 – May 31, 1996